I used to fear
I would never find you
That there was no you
To find
Fears you were fantasy
Mirage I had
Conjured forth
From skyscape
And dreams
Teasing shapes
From shadows
Of 3 a.m.
I had seen you
Somewhere
I would have sworn on it
But when I searched
You out
Striking chisel
To stone
And sediment
I was met only
With sand
I could not render
I wrestled color
From crow feathers
And quetzal
Mixed dye with dust
Poured in rain drops
Set mixture to mold
In casts
Curving body. Sway
Rhythms of river
And tide
Made you
Bright as midnight
Black as moonlight
Easy to hold close
As smoke
On wind
I used to fear
I would never find you
Used to.
I would never find you
That there was no you
To find
Fears you were fantasy
Mirage I had
Conjured forth
From skyscape
And dreams
Teasing shapes
From shadows
Of 3 a.m.
I had seen you
Somewhere
I would have sworn on it
But when I searched
You out
Striking chisel
To stone
And sediment
I was met only
With sand
I could not render
I wrestled color
From crow feathers
And quetzal
Mixed dye with dust
Poured in rain drops
Set mixture to mold
In casts
Curving body. Sway
Rhythms of river
And tide
Made you
Bright as midnight
Black as moonlight
Easy to hold close
As smoke
On wind
I used to fear
I would never find you
Used to.